I remember being very feisty when I was younger.
I believe it came from a place of sadness and disappointment. I could not do what others could, and I did not have much support at home. I felt like I was screaming into something, but no one was listening.
Younger people can be very emotional.
Consider how a young child will always scream if they do not get what they want, which is due to their limited thinking. Teenage is one of the most difficult years of life; young people want to be free, to go out, to stay late at night, to have more freedom, and to satisfy a variety of other desires.
However, as they grow older, they begin to realize that life is not what they believe it to be. There is a distinction between a teenager who pays bills and one who is fed by their parents. The former is more wild and does not fully comprehend life, whereas the latter does and behaves more maturely.
Teenagers who are very wild and those who are broken frequently exhibit various emotional shortfalls. The former is only expressing such emotions because they want to experience life in the way they want and are unable to do so.
The latter is experiencing so much toughness or hardness that it has broken and hurt them. Consider the child of a president who is constantly angry at his parents for always using chauffeur-driven limousines to transport them home from school, or for always using security details to monitor them even when they are reading at a friend's house.
They want to leave the security of their home and experience what it is like to be completely free.
Consider a teenager whose parents are abusive, fighting and quarreling in a dysfunctional family, with no access to proper education or even shelter with adequate food and care. These two types of teenagers are angry or sad for two distinct reasons. Life is indeed extremely unfair.
Some children are angry because their parents give them too much food, while others cannot bear to look at their parents because they are saddened and hurt because they do not have enough to eat. People can be sad or happy for a variety of reasons, and while this may seem counterintuitive, it is simply the human experience.
Some people will be completely satisfied if you only give them one meal per day, while others will never be satisfied even if you give them your entire lifetime's earnings.
The subjectivity of happiness or sadness is not black or white; when you delve deeply into the complexities of human existence and experience, you begin to understand the unfairness of life in reality.
When I was younger, my fiestiness stemmed from dysfunctionality, exposure to abuse, and a lack of care; I saw the children and their families and wished to emulate them. I believe that people have an inherent need to compare themselves to others. Most of the time, we compare ourselves to others not because we are dissatisfied, but because we simply want a sense of normalcy in our lives.
Even adults cannot avoid comparing themselves to one another.
Same thing
We try not to do it, but we can not always stop ourselves. Nobody wants to be different; human society values similarity, which is why when there is a difference in color, race, appearance, or financial status, it appears that the person who stands out is labeled as a black sheep. Unfortunately, we cannot avoid similarities, and even when we recognize this, people are still treated differently because they are different.
Conclusion
We can not kill or fix life's unfairness, but I believe it is one of the ingredients that will continue to provide us with experience. Somehow, I believe that once the unfairness of life is resolved, everything becomes black and white.
Everyone has a question for their creator; deep down, we have some disturbing questions that do not appear to have real-time answers. These demonstrate how life can be complex and inexplicable in some of the most perplexing ways.
Sometimes we find ways to make things even more complicated.
Consider concepts such as racism and nepotism. It is difficult to understand where humans are, so how can we expect to understand the universe when we can not even understand ourselves completely? It just goes to show that life is not meant to be completely understood; instead, just leave it and deal with the unfairness while finding ways to cope and manage it.
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